If this is your first time to this site, or you have not read it yet, please read my disclaimer first. I promise it is not as boring as it sounds! If I do not make you laugh, you can have your money back…wait, you didn’t pay! Get back here! Really though, it is important to me that you read this as I deal with a lot of disturbing and mature content.

Now that I’ve got you, I should let you know a little about me, why I am writing this blog and what you and I should expect from it.

Feature Image Taking her Innocence by owlink via DeviantArt

About the Author

Right now you might be asking yourself why you should listen to me on the subject of abuse, or any other for that matter. Well, I am not sure if you should, but let me tell you why I might if I were you.

I have experienced a lot of abuse, amounting to about 18 years worth. I wish I could say it was on and off, but that was only true for the last five years. So I would say I have some experience on the subject. Since this abusive period I have spent the last 10 years healing and learning how to heal.

Please keep in mind that I am not a doctor, but I have seen a lot of them and will share their advice with you here.

My interests include hippie, new age-y stuff such as environmentalism, Wicca, gardening, post-feminism, incense, and cats, even black ones. Actually, especially black ones…I am a bit dark and twisted, with an affection for the occult. I marvel at nature and anything I can do in it, like hiking and camping.

Music is a big part of my life, always has been, and always will be. I love to cook and would never refuse making you a good meal if I had the chance! I also enjoy hand crafts such as knitting, crocheting, beading and scrap-booking.

Image by AndreajA via Deviant Art

Image SI by AndreajA via Deviant Art

I almost got a degree in interior design, but decided my heart lays with technology, as I am passionate about computers and what they can do for me. I got intrigued by graphic design, digital art, fine art, and photography.

As a professional I am a bit bored, but that is part of my process for right now. I am interested in pursuing a career in the art fields, but have not been able to make that leap yet. Careers I have considered include: jewelry maker, photographer, graphic designer, website graphic designer and freelance painter. I also like the idea of teaching as I get older. But hey, what about being a palmist? That could be fun too.

Learn more about my abuse history and why I started this blog.

 About The Blog

Why I Blog

I have spent the last ten years trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I felt an invisible force in my life, but believe me, the monster manifested itself. I call these monsters many names, such as post traumatic stress disorder, bi-polar, anxiety disorder, body dysmorphia…you get my point. My life has been crap, with some beautiful exceptions, until more recently. Patterns are now finally starting to change for the better. It has taken me a long time and a lot of hard work to get where I am now, so I want to share that process with others. Don’t get me wrong, I still have a long way to go, but I am getting there.

I am starting this blog to share my stories, thoughts and ideas and to make my voice heard. As a survivor of child abuse, I was not often listened to or believed, and was usually ignored. I hope this blog will help correct that injustice…and hopefully help others be heard if they wish.

Interacting (to Help)

I hope that My Monster Has a Name will build community and help me and others to express ourselves. I want this to be a free haven for all things, where any thoughts, ideas and topics are allowed, and you and I can talk about anything.

I do not expect to help anyone but myself, but if I do touch or help even one person, that would be awesome! I will try to offer hope, wisdom, pure experience, and documentation of my personal process to recovery through my posts, session splash’s, and resources.

For now I am choosing to remain anonymous for my personal sense of security. Please respect my privacy when interacting with the site.

What I Blog

pans-labrynth-circle-largeSome of the topics are going to be difficult, even for me to write, but that is all part of the process. Please do read my disclaimer.

I am writing My Monster Has a Name to document my healing process for those who are interested in seeing what it took for one person. However, that does not mean my process will garner the same results for you. We are all very different, with very different experiences and reactions, so results may vary!

Have a look at The Blog to see a list of different categories and tags to get a sense of what I write about.

Additional Thoughts


Please visit my disclaimer page for more information on my expectation of you being here in my space. Be aware that I hold all comments for moderation before they are posted, so only post once!

Trigger Warning

This blog is by an adult and intended for adults, due to the mature nature of it’s content. Please be advised.