To sum it up simply, I started having an interest in starting therapy again at the start of this year because my life is the same shit it has always been. I feel like I struggle daily with regular tasks that most people take getting accomplished for granted. But in the past I had just accepted this as part of MY life. I try to do the best I can with any given day. Some days I give up on getting anything productive done, others I almost feel like a normal, hard-working adult who is part of the functioning society. I’m sick of beating myself up everyday for something I haven’t healed from, and didn’t even really know how to as demonstrated from all the past posts on this blog.
And that is when the bell rung for me – I didn’t KNOW HOW to heal. With that realization I decided I needed to give therapy another chance, from a completely different perspective. Read more
Recollection of a very graphic flashback. My memory of what I believe to be an example of child prostitution/pornography and ritualized sexual abuse. Read more
This post describes the background behind the art therapy artwork “Unreality” created during session on January 05, 2009. Read more
This is my personal post traumatic stress disorder timeline. It demonstrates how my PTSD has developed over my lifetime, illustrating the associated features, personal costs, and stages at various ages. Inspired by the Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder Sourcebook by Glenn Schiraldi. Read more
Talking about feeling, thoughts and body sensations after being diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I also list reasons that I have always suspected DID. Read more
This is an abuse story that describes why I have arachnophobia. It is slightly graphic and also talks about my biological mother. Read more